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Masyado tayo nagpapataasan ng ihi?!?  Nagpapaligsahan sa pagpapalitan ng maaanghang at mabulaklak na salita.

Hindi na tayo mga bata para maglaro ng pahabaan o patagalan. Pahabaan ng pag-iinarte o patagalan ng paghawak sa pride?!!

Gusto ko magpakalayo layo! Umakyat ng bundok! Sumigaw sa tuktok. Magbasag ng plato. Pumunta sa gym at sumuntok ng sumuntok sa punching bag! Gusto ko maglaho muna.

Madami tumatakbo sa isip ko! Gusto ko lang magbulalas ng saloobin ko. Wala ako matakbuhan kaya ikaw ang nilapitan ko: titik, ideya, obra likha ng mapanlinlang na emosyon.

Napapagod na ako. Gusto ko sumuko na! Mahimlay at hayaan dalhin ng lalim ng lupa sa kaibutaran ng walang hanggang kapayapaan.

Nakakapanghina na makipagpaligsahan sa sarili. To beat the old you and be a better version of yourself. Ang dami pang kailangan baguhin. Ang dami pang dapat gawin.

Nakakatakot kung saan ako dadalhin ng mga sinasabi ko. Kung saan ako ipapadpad ng pagtakbo ng aking imahinasyon.

Basta ang alam ko!

Ganito ako.

Ganyan ka.

Tao tayo. Nagkakamali. Nakakasakit. Natututo.

Ikaw na Ama ang bahala sa akin at sa mga darating pang mga araw. Mahina ako at walang kakayahan! Palyado madalas ang mga desisyon kaya hawakan Mo ang palad ko. Sabayan Mo ako sa paghakbang. Eto ang sagwan ko. Sa Iyong kumpas ako’y susunod.

#impediment #cascade #vague #justread

ycelah_1813

april 04,2013

2:57 pm

A journey starting at forever and ending at never! :)

AUTHOR’S DISCLAIMER:  Others might find this piece so revealing and indulging my private life. Others will find this piece exaggerating or non sense, that’s alright.  I just want to share the half of my being and the complexity of my humanity.

“The love that came back is really the love that never went away…”

"A good-bye is never painful unless you’re never going to say hello again. Goodbyes are not forever. Goodbyes are not the end. They simply mean I’ll miss you until we meet again."

"Nobody can go back and start a new beginning. But anyone can start again and make a wonderful ending." 

sorry koya! nasama ka tuloy sa pag-eemote ko.:)

Suddenly the ended story turned out its pages into a new chapter. Suddenly all the memories flashed back and brought me to a sanctuary where I want to chant all what’s going on with my mind and my heart. I found this love story a never ending one and a weirdest of all.

PS: I’ll make the story complicated for my readers to get clueless more! HAHA. :”>

It was a long journey since year of 2007 when I first met this frail boy in front of our house. Me, acting as if I am one of the boys (because I hate being like a girl during those time, I don’t brush my hair, I don’t wear a lipstick, I only wear skirts when I go to church). My mom asked me to serve him a cup of “barakong kape” while my favorite dog is already playing with his hands. The journey never stopped and just like a common “getting to know scenarios”, my nokia 3315,my guitar and the roof of our house and the pavement of my Mother church witnessed everything and anything how the friendship turned to a romantic one.

I could be the weirdest girl but I do have checklists of a guy before I enter to a relationship and to those who know him more, kayo na magsabi kung pumasok sya sa criteria ko! Hehe.

1. From a far away land- Un tipong pwede ko pagbakasyunan ang probinsya nila. Dora the Explorer kase ih! J
2. Either a sport enthusiast or music minded or dancer o kahit ano basta may talent- Eh kase frustrated ako na singer. Eh kase I love being in sport or any outdoor activities. Eh kase wala ako talent kaya I eye someone who has.
3. I won’t go in a relationship unless graduate na ako ng college- Eh kase kilala ko sarili ko pag nagmahal. I have a fear that when I fell inlove while studying eh hindi ko matapos pag-aaral ko. I don’t want to disappoint my family.
4. I’m not after the look, I’m after the heart. – Un tipong super love nya ang family nya. Un tipong uunahin nya lage needs ng family nya before his own need. I believed when a guy love his family so much, no doubt when he build his own family, he’ll love it that much too.
5. Born Again Christian (either a Pastor or kung hindi man e yun level of maturity serving the Lord is to the highest level na)- Last in the list but my top of what I prayed for. I know people around me will brag about this one, but I guessed it’s a calling also. I want to see myself a professional woman serving God and serving His people. I prayed for a guy who will bring me more closely to God than to his self.

March 2008, HAHA! chubby ng face ko.

The moment when I felt there must be something and my heart might be beating abnormally, I decided to kneel down to God and ask what He wants. I become a woman of prayers. I asked for God’s wisdom specially I don’t know anything when it comes to handling a relationship. Yah! I must admit, I am great in giving advice on a bf/gf relationship but when it comes to my own, there’s a big question mark and but’s and if’s. I don’t mind if he did the same too or how eager he prayed for, that’s none of my business anymore. As long as God intercedes and works on, I believed everything is on His plan.

Sweetness has always a bitter side. The story ended but the bond is still there. We broke up for almost 3 years but we agreed to be best friends. I must say the “getting to know scenarios” has just started during that rainy month of June 2010. Say to me I’m so over reacting but as the rain pours on my umbrella, the tears are swiftly rolling on my cheeks. HAHA! It’s simply because I am forcing myself to let go a man that I still love just because God wants to teach us something. I have to convince myself that I must be happy because at least we’re best friends, we are freer to be open to each other, share any burdens, joy, frustration, prayer requests, success and failures. But that was the only one side of a coin when you flip it. That thing sucks me. I felt the pain more knowing we’re just friends. No cuddle up, no hugs, no surprises, no I love you and definitely no more us on a happily ending ever as those fairytale has. Within that long span of time, we are texting, we are calling, we are seeing each other often but I can feel there is a big difference. I ran to him every time I want to tell work related stories or family related thingies. He does the same thing to me! What makes me proud of him is when he asked me to do his speech for his graduation. I am so happy during that time while I’m with her sister and mother as an audience but still I have a half hearted knowing we are just best friends. I didn't go to any relationship because I want to fall inlove when I am ready not when I am lonely and I do prayed also that when I enter into a new relationship, the next man I will fall for will be the one who will bring me to altar. Yes, he didn't go into a relationship too, but there are lot of stories on his search to what his heart has and to whom his heart is for. And all those stories no matter how hard I tried to throw up or burry down will always be a part of this journey. And to my dear and trusted friends who patiently listened to me every time I am so weak to carry alone those pain, frustration and doubt, THANK YOU. You know who you are guys. XOXO. I won’t have any regrets; I won’t blame myself for doing crazy things because of love for I know those are all part of tuning up by God. Those are part of preparing me to be a better me. I learned a lot and indeed all things work together for those who love Him (Romans 8:28).

Like a normal break up’s, I've been through a moving on experience. I have to spread out my zone and find more friends to whom I can spend time and kill the moments that I felt so lonely and broken. I long more to be in God’s presence where I am free and relax to release all the sorrow I have. I met guys and both of them have any of the given criteria. But I don’t consider them as suitors because when I met them, I know my heart is still pre-occupied. That was only July 2012 when my mind and heart worked as one. When I fully surrendered every bits of brokenness to the Creator of my heart but the best ever decision I made was to surrender his heart also not to any women out there but only to God. I am pretty sure that time I am ready to fall in love to any of those men I met or I will still meet on my search of a happy love story. 

my devotional/diary/crying pad! HAHA. >:)

But suddenly things changed. The two guys disappeared like bubbles. I was so surprised when he admitted to me that the moment when I decided to give up on him was also the moment when he realized that I am the one. I can barely remember how our conversation on month of August 2012 went on. He even asked for a big APOLOGY and started to rattle all the secret stories he has in his heart on that day. "I never stopped loving you. All the waiting moments, all the surprises and dates we shared though we broke up. I did it all because I still love you." He whispered those words gently into my ears that frozen me and found myself crying.  What sticks to my mind was his answer to my question: “Paano kung wala na yung love? Paano kung ayoko na?” And he shared the verse from 1 Corinthian 13:4a,7-8.

personalized cover photo! isa sa paborito kong gawen. :)

And here we go again, March 2013 we went back again to the beginning, 60 months after I first said yes to him as my boyfriend. We ought to realize why we know how to love. That is because God first loved us. And we are building again all the good and bad memories ripped away by the past. We are dreaming again for the future. We are struggling again to bring a relationship that will be a blessing and an inspiration to others but most especially pleasing to God. We are praying to maintain this relationship that He is the third party, a relationship that He is the driver of a journey to infinity and beyond. We have plans, we yielded for it yet we believed still to HIS will. We never know what tomorrow may bring. If this love will be till eternity, only God knows and to Him we entrust everything. More prayers! More work outs! More steps out of faith! And this will going to be a journey starting at forever and ending at never in God’s will and help.

one of those vanity shots! :)

antoooooooooook naaaa!

#ycelah_1813

march 27, 2013

2:10 am

God Hears Your Heart

By GodLife on February 9, 2013

From the series Prayer Letter

#HAHA! ngaun na nga lang ulet ako nag update ng blogs ko! copy and paste pa. Waley! Ang busy kase. Sayang mga ideas and thoughst ko na gustong gusto ko isulat pero hindi ko nagawa dahil sa sobrang busy ko! hahay! mean time, just wanna share this craft! it inspired me, i do hope it will also be to those who can be able to read this.

Scripture: "Search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts."(Psalms 139:23)

My life with Jesus has been a journey: exciting and adventurous, but also filled with obstacles and challenges. Prayer has helped me stay close to God through it all, even when I wasn't sure if God was hearing me. I have learned through each challenge that God always hears me and knows what is on my heart--more than I ever could.

Challenging circumstances often drive me to my knees. There, I find assurance that I am safe in God’s hands, no matter what. Then I start to ask for guidance. He is always faithful to give me wisdom and point me in a direction that glorifies Him and honors Jesus.

But sometimes I am speechless, not knowing how to pray or what to say.

Have you ever felt so heavy and burdened that words just wouldn’t come? Or have you ever found yourself helpless, discouraged, or even angry at God? If you have, it’s okay. King David, the writer of most of our Psalms in the Bible, was not afraid to express these feelings, saying things such as, "Awake, Lord! Why do you sleep? Rouse yourself! Do not reject us forever. Why do you hide your face and forget our misery and oppression?"(Psalms 44)

Regardless of how we feel, the truth is plainly stated for us: "In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express."(Romans 8:26). Isn't that amazing? He cares for you so much that even if you don't know what to say, or when you're too sad or upset to explain exactly how you're feeling, the Holy Spirit intercedes on your behalf with things that you couldn’t express even if you tried.

God doesn't intend for you to do anything on your own, even prayer. Isn't that amazing? He cares for you so much that even if you don't know what to say to God, or when you're too sad or distraught to even be able to figure out on your own exactly how we're feeling, the Holy Spirit intercedes for you on your behalf with things that would not ever be possible to express if you tried. God doesn't intend for you to do anything on your own, even prayer.

Now I know that God hears my heart and knows me better than I know myself. This has completely changed my perspective on prayer. Instead of letting confusion or pain drive me away from God, I now feel closer to God because of the truth found in Romans 8:26. I rest in the knowledge that any suffering I endure on this earth is nothing compared to what my Savior, Jesus, endured when he died on the cross for my sins, and that He always has my best in mind. 2 Timothy says that if we die, we live with him; and if we endure, we will also reign with him. That is surely good news!!

The next time you have trouble knowing what to pray, ask the Holy Spirit to intercede for you. God says that He will, and you don't have to do anything special for that to happen. Just trust Jesus. God cares about you and He loves you more than you could ever begin to imagine.

PASENSYA NA, TAO LANG

I got an idea to write about this from the song I just saw the music video over studio 23. The title itself is interesting plus Quest (a Christian band) is part of the song that's why I went over the net and searched the lyrics and decided to write anything about it that gust out my mind. 

Listen to the song and you'll realize that mortals are not really perfect. We are made imperfect for God to make us perfect. How can we recognize the greatness of God if we are born as perfect as God is. (As all of us reflect the Lord's glory with faces that are not covered with veils, we are being changed into his image with ever-increasing glory. This comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit.-2 Cor. 3:18, God's Word Translations)

I picked up some lyrics that hit like a bullet astray to me and I'll be sharing some of my thoughts out of nowhere for you to ponder. 

♪♫ Mali ba na magkamali ang 'sang tulad ko
      Ako ay tao lang din naman na tulad mo
      Ano ba ang dapat na gawin ♪♫

~ Nobody is perfect so why judged people when they committed mistakes. In fact, mistakes are our stepping stones to learning. Mistakes are proof that we are trying. Don't be afraid of falling. When you fall, bounce back and stand as hard as you can. Don't let those failures bring you down. Remember when you are down to nothing, God is up to something. When you failed, don't give up. Make it as an encouragement for you to make yourself better. Besides, we exist to live out of ourselves: to change, to learn and to grow up.

♪♫ Ano magagawa mo? Tao ka lang
      Napapagod, natatakot, naiinip
      Natatawa, nagtataka, naiinggit
      Nangangawit, nagagalit, nabibigla
      Nalulungkot, nauutot, nahihiya
      Natutukso, nakukonsensya, nauubusan din ng pasensya
      Nasasaktan, nagmumura pero nagmamahal pa rin kahit natuto na. ♪♫

~ Live the life you have. Don't put too much pressures on yourselves when you don't meet the world's standards. People are people. You cannot please everyone. Instead of worrying what others might say about you, focus on how you can improve who you are. Make a life out of your life that aligns to God's standards. Don't exempt yourselves from mistakes or failures. Because humans are designed as what we are now : tired-rest; afraid-fearless; boredom-enjoyment; cry-laugh; sad-happy. It's always a two way actions. And good thing is it's always our choice which way we will settle on.Live your life to the fullest. Laugh as much as you can, travel as long as you have money, cry as much as you have tears, dance as long as you can bear on the music, sing as much as there are notes in the songs, smile as long as you have teeth, talk as much as you have words to speak and don't forget to live your life WELL.

♪♫ Pasensya na, tao lang
      Pasensya na, sorry naman ♪♫

~ Apologizing doesn't mean you are weak. It means you are mature enough to admit that people are not perfect. Saying sorry is a way of choosing a relationship against our ego. But a word sorry is not a license to anyone to pull like a trigger in their hands to hurt people. Just because there is a word sorry that we can utter to others when we accidentally or intentionally break their hearts, we will repeatedly hurt them. It's a NO NO. Saying sorry is after a sincere heart. When you say sorry, be sure to mean it through your actions.  Love more and hate less. This is the golden rule for me that I hope every one will set to themselves, too.


I'll be sharing the link courtesy of www.youtube.com. Here we go.
I hope you enjoy reading and at the same time listening to the music. :)

ycelah_1813
01/09/13
11:02 am

#back to reality..i just slink out from my work just to write. hehe. :))

STAR CITY ROCKS! :)

Astig!

Awesome!

Nakakatakot!

Enjoy!

Rock en roll! :DDD

Sa aking pagpunta sa Star City kasama sila bebe juvy at sir ylon , may sampung alaalala at karanasan ako na di makakalimutan. Tara! Alamin natin kung ano ano ang mga yon! :D

1. Na prove ko na ang mga biglaang lakad talaga ang natutuloy. Kahapon, Jan 05 ng magtext si bebe juvy na mag star city daw kame ng araw na yun. Hindi kame natuloy sa kadahilanang may work ako. Ni resched at naging Jan 06 na lang after namin sumimba.

2. Nasubok na naman ang pagka dora the explorer ko. Panic mode ako kase hindi ko alam paanu pumunta don mag isa. Sorry, hindi lahat ng cum laude matalino. Haha! Ako ang proof non. Bopings talaga ako pagdating sa directions. Kaya minessage ko pa si kikai kahit asa USA na sya,eh kaso late sya nakareply. Pati driver namen ke aga aga ay tinext ko pa. Hindi din nahuli sa listahan si google map. Pero ang pinaka da best na ginawa ko ay nagpray ako. Thank God, answered prayer kase nagsabay na kame ni sir ylon papunta don. Meeting place: baclaran.

3. Ang 2:30 naging 3:30! Oh ha. Filipino time. Peace bebe juvy. Ayown! Ang aga namin 2 pa lang andon na kame ni sir ylon. Naubos na pwede pag usapan. Nainip. Nangalay kakatayo, thank God dumating din.

4. Conquer your fear. Kase surf dance una namin sinakyan, ayun.. Ang bilis ko kinapitan ng takot. At ayoko na sumakay sa star frisbee nila. Grabe lang kase hindi pa ako sumasakay, pinapanood ko pa lang sila. Ayoko na. Nanginginig na ako. Eh kase ayoko maging KJ at gusto ko din maconquer fear ko at maexperience ang ride na yun. Gora na din ako. Thank God, I conquered that fear.

5. Ang matulala at maiwan sa pila. Haha. Lutang pa din sa rides na pagkataas taas, ayun naiwan ako. Un dalawa naman tawa lang ng tawa at di agad ako sinabihan. Mga tunay ko sila talagang kaibigan.

6. Ang mag split habang kumukuha ng rubber for slide sa Snow world. Buti na lang muntik muntikanan lang madulas at split lang ang peg ko kase lalo ako manlalamig sa hiya kun nangyare na magpaka mega dulas ako don. As usual un dalawa, tawa lang ang itinulong sa akin. Sabe sa inyo tunay ko talaga silang kaibigan.

7. Ang matakot sa buhay na tao kesa sa mga caricatures na nanakot sa Lagim ng Dilim at Mummy House. tawa lang ako ng tawa pagkakatapos ko magulat at umirit.

8. Ang gumala ng pamasahe lang ang dala. Eh kase 0 balance mula sa gastusin nun holidays. Pamasahe lang dala ko. Makapal na siguru mukha ko kase lage na lang ako nililibre eh kase natatapat talaga ang mga gala na wala ako budget kaya un. :(

9. Ang makakuha ng souvenir items.. Bet na bet ko si pooh. Touch na touch din ako kun panu ko nareceived un. As usual pooh will be my first apple of the eye. While walking I saw it and asked how much it is. Sadly, wala ako budget para don (please refer to number 7 for explanation). Pero the two of them shared money para lang maiuwi ko yun. Super saya ko. Thank God for another lovely stuff to keep.

10. I am forever blessed and always highly favored. Nakakatuwa lang kase God is keeping up in sending good and lasting friends and the two of them are included on my list. Pareho ko lang nameet sila sa facebook and because I love finding new friends, nakilala ko sila. So amazed how we've been comfortable to each others companionship. Thank You Lord. I may not gain all the riches of the world but I'll be forever rich on Your ways not on human's ways. Your ways are higher than ours. Your plans are bigger than us. I am one of Your chosen. I am blessed.

# think and type na naman ang peg ko. No more proof reading done.
# tag-lish mode.
# sorry pang text ang iba kong spelling. Sa BB note ko lang ginawa kase non hindi pa ako antukin.

ycelah_1813
01/06/13
12:55 pm

40 TIPS FOR HAPPY HEALTH LIFE IN 2013

*** COPY AND PASTE KO LANG TO.



I found it interesting and helpful at the same time that's why I decided to save it for my future reference.


Health:

1. Drink plenty of water.

2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.

3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants, and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.

4. Live with the 3 E’s — Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.

5. Make time for prayer and reflection

6. Play more games.

7. Read more books than you did in 2012.

8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.

9. Sleep for 7 hours.


Personality:

10. Take a 10-30 minutes walk every day —- and while you walk, smile.

11. Don’t compare your life to others’. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

12. Don’t have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.

13. Don’t over do; keep your limits.

14. Don’t take yourself so seriously; no one else does.

15. Don’t waste your precious energy on gossip.

16. Dream more while you are awake.

17. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

18. Forget issues of the past. Don’t remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.

19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don’t hate others.

20. Make peace with your past so it won’t spoil the present.

21. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.

22. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.

23. Smile and laugh more.

24. You don’t have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.


Community:

25. Call your family often.

26. Each day give something good to others.

27. Forgive everyone for everything.

28. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.

29. Try to make at least three people smile each day.

30. What other people think of you is none of your business.

31. Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your family and friends will. Stay in touch.


Life:

32. Do the right things.

33. Get rid of anything that isn’t useful, beautiful or joyful.

34. Forgiveness heals everything.

35. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

36. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

37. The best is yet to come.

38. When you awake alive in the morning, don’t take it for granted – embrace life.

39. Your inner most is always happy. So, be happy.

Last but not least:


40. Enjoy LIFE!

happy birthday flash girl! :)

do superheroes exist in this world?

or are they only fiction characters in books or movies?

we are indeed superheroes in our own ways..

doing good..loving unconditionally...serving GOD...serving His people to the best we can do not require any super powers and all of these deeds could be consider works of a super hero..

a teacher is a super hero for he or she mold a young minds that will hold the future...

a policeman is a super hero for he or she protects people against crime..

all of us as long as we put our heart in every endeavor we have are indeed super heroes...

anyways, I'm so sleepy as of this moment and I can't think any more that good so forgive me if my thoughts are cluttered and my grammar is F as in failed. :( 

I just want to write..that's all. I hope you guys understand my personal rants.

let's go back on the story behind the gift I received...

last Oct 14-15, 2012, we had United Nations/Halloween Celebration at the school...

cheden!! 

Go over with the photo and see I am a FLASH GIRL. Spell effort, AKO yun. Kase ung costume ko winork out ko lang na magmukhang flash girl. Creative mind leads to a creative look. HAHA! :)

One Friday  I can't remember the exact date when I saw all of them wearing shirt with the same print of the super  hero they portrait during the celebration. Eh nag jelly fish ako sa kanila. Inggiterang froglet kase ako. I told them : "bakit kayo lang? Ako din! Gusto ko din..Ako si flash girl..para I belong." I asked Teacher Jill and Teacher Kate to buy one for me and I'll just pay them.

Eh kaso...I think two weeks after that they texted me and told me na wala na daw flash girl..incredible hulk na lang daw ang meron.Eh since hulk is green and green is part of my blood I said bilhan pa din nila ako. 

Surprisingly, they were able to buy a shirt of a flash girl and gave it to me as a birthday present. ME?! HAPPY froglet na naman. 

thank you so much for this guys! xoxo.thank you for the love. thank you for the help. thank you my A PLUS family. You all guys are blessings and treasures to me. :DDD

For those who will take time to read this, so sorry guys! mababaw kaligayahan ko kase. I don't care how big or small the thing I received, I always appreciate and treasure it. I love taking pictures of those tokens, gifts or whatever! So that when I get old or time passed by when I looked back, memories, lessons and happiness will flash back also. 

ycelah_1813

12/21/12

11:28 pm

Happy birthday to me! :)

December 18....

 

a day I'll be always grateful..

 

a day I'll be always happy...

 

a day I'll be always blessed...

 

I thought that day will be a usual one to me, a very normal and nothing extra ordinary. Get up from bed, pray and prepare for a long day work. But I've been so surprised how my day turned to a memorable one. I hope this craft will not be so long because I have so many things I'd like to say. I got blasts of birthday greetings either personal, text messages, facebook messages and wall posts. To all who exerted time and effort to send their greetings in any ways, maraming salamat po from the bottom of my heart.

Sabe nila kapag inlove daw lalo na ang mga girls, nagiging BASURERA daw kase un simpleng kendi wrapper o kea tissue paper sa restaurant kung saan nag date ay itinatago at pinapakaingatan. I guess, isa ako sa basurera na yun but in a modern way kase it's all on the photos and I'll be posting some of it. :) 

I was able to read this text around 5:42 am. dame ko tawa sa text na to. tawa ba o kilig? the first SMS I received from him was around 12:01 am of dec 18. Ang sabe nya nag paalarm daw talaga sya para magreet nya ako on time. Oh ha! Check for the effort. Eh ung second greetings! panalo da ba? parang panis lang.I was about to send a reply to him pero bigla syang tumawag. Tawa lang kame ng tawa for almost 15 minutes in the phone. Kaya 6:08 am ko na nareplyan un text nya..*telebabad ke aga aga! :D

And the day continued as it is. To be honest I'm still expecting something from him. As in yung boom na boom. Sya kase ang tipo ng tao na sobrang mahilig manorpresa. I would still remember those random times na he will tell me na he's on his way already to meet with me para maglunch kame together kahit hindi ko sya inaaya.At madalas may dala syang mga regalo. I'd rather not to post it here kase madame na po! One thing more, I'm still expecting for more kahit binigyan nya na ako ng gift a week before my birthday. Okay! Admitted, may pagkademanding po ako..:(

I asked him to go with me on the mall because I want to buy pants and just like the old days, he came with me. After buying the pants I want, when we are about to go out, he saw the yellow pants a manikin is wearing. I'm so surprised na binili nya yun. And he insisted to buy the blouse para daw partner. Early birthday gift nya dw. Woooooh!!!! ako naman, e sayang saya kase may bago na naman akong damit. HAHA! :D

Thank GOD, he didn't failed me, my expectation turned into reality. I've been expecting a cake from him. HAHA! Ang babaw ng kaligayahan ko da ba? Cheden.

One of the happiest time of my life, blowing a candle na galing sa kanya. I don't care the looks, the taste or even the price of the cake, all I care is the effort he did just to gave it to me. "...alam ko na sasaya ka kaya binilhan kita. Ramdam ko na malungkot ka kase akala mo wala ung cake." few sentences he uttered.

To sum it up that day is so fruitful, meaningful and joyous. As I laid my body to sleep, I've been reminded by God how blessed I am. I've been blessed by different people that I met for a reason: to challenge me, to inspire me, to hurt me, to teach me, to guide me and to love me. Yun oh! HAHA! :) Thank You Lord for the lives of my family (tatay, inay, kuya odel, kuya omel and kuya echo, ate arlene, guirete, ate mae, richmae and to you my GPC), relatives, friends, co workers, church mates, haters and all the people You brought and still bringing into my life. They are all treasures to me.

I've been reminded by our God how so dear I am to Him. Thank you Jesus for giving me a breath of life. I pray that You mold it to what You intended me to be. I pray that You use it to glorify You alone. And whatever my life leads on, I believe it's already on your plans. Jeremiah 29:11.

I made her…She is different, She is unique. With love I formed in her mother’s womb, I fashioned her with great joy. I remember, with great pleasure, the day I created her.
(Psalm 139:13-16)

 

ycelah_1813
12/20/12
9:43 pm

        

SPEECHLESS. CLUELESS. HAPPINESS.

This week is such a (whaaaaaat??? can't think an exact adjective that will definitely describe how I am) HAHA! O_o

But to put in a simple statement. I got sick. soooo sick! :(
I guess I am on the trend. Every one is getting sick,probably because of the cold weather coz it's already yuletide season. And the ice in the North Pole is already melting....Nyahaa! freak.pati North Pole isinama sa story.

The worst scenario is that I still have to get up on my bed and go to work for so many reasons. First thing is that I have so many deadlines to submit because I have to prepare and do Financial Analysis (wew! parang tunay na nag aanalyze ako..eh nag FFB lang naman ako sa work ko! HAHA!) Next reason is that I don't wanna stay on my room the whole day and just take a rest. I am weird! Definitely I am. Because every time I am alone, I get sad. Or I get to love myself more and more because I used to take scorn faces of mine, probably 40 shots in just an hour..no kidding! hehe. So for those who are reading this that are my friends in FB, don't be surprised if you saw an uploaded photos of mine so many times. You've got a hint. It means I am alone that time or I am sad. Third reason is I don't have any leave credits in my work. I consumed it up! Duh..because I always get sick or I have personal errand so so important that I really have to go absent. NO WORK. NO PAY. NO MONEY. NO PAMBAYAD OF CREDITS. hehe!And so I really have no choice but to force myself to work.

Enough for too much updates about what happened to me this week. Thank God that despite of all of these,I still see to it that I have a happy spirit.

And I always give back the glory and praises to our God. Apart from Him I am nothing. I don't know why but maybe it's all in the power of our mind. When we dwell on things that make us sad, we get lonelier! But once we redirect the course of our thinking to those that make us happy and give us a reviving energy, we noticed our spirit became happy. This is proven and based on my personal experience. 

This is my status update on FB last Wednesday (Dec 5), just wanna share.

"The LORD is my strength and shield. I trust him with all my heart. He helps me, and my heart is filled with joy. I burst out in songs of thanksgiving."~ Psalms 28:7

#My heart is rejoicing. La la la la. Thank You so much Lord.
^___________^

#the joy of the Lord is my strength.

Another status I just posted awhile ago.

"Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice!"~Phil. 4:4

#smile lang kahit may mga alalahanin. Smile lang kahit may lungkot. For GOD is with us so we got more reasons to smile and rejoice..

:))))

 
That's all for now. Time checked. 11:22 am. SSSShhh! Madalian to..as in..think and type style. No more time for proof reading. It just happened my writing pulse urge me to write and I just do it quickly. I am at the office now and because it's Saturday, I am such a sluggish lass today. I got to go back on my work. And pressure myself because I didn't do my assignment earlier. My boss is waiting for my email about the suggestion if the company can give a Christmas bonus for this year based on the financial performance of the school. Uh uh! To tell you frankly, I hope so, the management will give us. All of the team worked hard for this year to achieve the targets and we're almost on it! Hooraaay...Cross finger and praying that this will be granted. Pandagdag din sa pang aginaldo sa aking sangkatutak na mga inaanak..hehe.

buzzz!!!
bye for now..till then.

ycelah_1813
dec 8,2012
11:25 am

 

Remnant of Tomorrow!

Whom shall I blamed for another hard battle night against myself on going to sleep? Is it the chicken aroz caldo that I asked our househelper to cook for me kase nag crave ako bigla. Or maybe the calamansi juice extract that I drank kase nangangati lalamunan ko? Or maybe un 1 slide powerpoint pa lang ng lesson plan ko na ituturo ko kay robin? O pwede din siguru un wi-fi na naman sa bahay kase anytime anywhere in the house I can go online. Sino ba kase talaga? Siguru ung mga hormones at kun ano anong fluid sa katawan ko ang may dahil? O kaya ang malikot kong isipan na kun saan saan ako dinadala? Hayyy! Bottom line is hindeeeee naaaaaa naman ako makatulog. Grrrr! Hello eyebags na naman ang drama bukas at lazy body joints! Tsk.. Good thing about this was nakagawa na naman ako ng poem na may pag kaweird! I turned off my laptop, yes I did yet bb note is on the go kaya kahit nakahiga na sa kama ay nakasulat pa din ako ng obra! Cheden!..Please basahin nyo to.
Awa na. Haha. :D:D:D

Ipikit mu ang yong mga matang mapupungay
At saken ay sabay na humimlay
Sa aking mga braso ikaw ay dumantay
Tayo ay pansamantalang maglalakbay

Handa ka na ba iwan ang iyong mundo
At sumama sa pagbuo ng ating paraiso
Kung saan walang lungkot na mauuso
Kundi saya ang madarama sa bawat segundo

Talastasin mu ang nasa ng aking isipan
Ito'y ang makalayo sa mga malabong bugtungan
At matuldukan ang walang hanggang palatanungan
Nang malaya natin maihayag ang wagas na sumpaan

Dahan dahan mu iladlad ang iyong mga kamay
Dito lang ako na sabay na kakampay
Wag kang bibitaw, tayo ay magsasaysay
Sa iisang pag-ibig na sa atin ay nag-uugnay

Walang makakahadlang sa pag-abot ng pangarap
Dito ka lang, malapet na masuklian ang pagsisikap
Doon wala ng dusa,problema, sakit at paghihirap
Pulos saya at tawa ang aalingawngaw sa mga alapaap

Sige na nga ibitaw mo na lang ang 'yong braso
Ayos lang, siguro ay hanggang dito na lang ako
Pero pwede wag kang iiyak, pagkat itong mga puso
Natin ay doon nakatakdang muling mabubuo

elah_1813
12/03/12
1:32 am