KAIBIGAN USAP TAYO! :)

Anu nga ba ang pakuhulugan ng salitang “kaibigan” o “friends”.

Minsan,natatanong ko sa sarili ko, pwede kaya ako magkaron ng best friend o ng mga totoong kaibigan. Ako kasi ang tipo ng tao na madaling ijudge sa kung paano ako kumilos,magsalita at magisip. Pero ganun na ata talga ang buhay e. Likas na sa mga tao ang manghusga at manlait sa kung anu nakikita nila sa iyo physically.

Immune na ako sa ganun! Bata pa lang, bugbog na ako sa mga ganyang experience. Pero I know God’s favor is with me. Ang lage ngang wika ng aking butihing ina sa tuwing uuwe ako sa aming bahay kubo at umiiyak gawa ng mga ganung bagay.

“ Ang taong nagpapakataas ay ibinababa ng Diyos at ang nagpapakumbaba ay Siya namn niyang tinataas.”

Na hanggang ngaun patuloy ko pinaniniwalaan at pinaninindigan. Ganyan tlaga ang life. Hehe..=)

I have lot of friends. They were like pebbles on the seashore I picked up along the way of my life. Parang Survivor Philippines lang din. Sa pagtagal ng panahon, unti unti kong nakikita kung sino nga ba ang magtatagal hanggang sa huli. Sino ang maiiwang kasama ko sa takbuhin ng buhay. Thanks God, I am starting to see those people that are true to me.

And they are…..

Someone who knows the song in my heart and can sing it back to me when I have forgotten the words.

They are the people whom I haven’t known since pre-school, but it doesn’t matter at all. They are the one I can go to for anything. They cheer me up whenever I am down and feeling blue. They listen to me when I have a problem and help dry the tears away from my face. They take away my sorrow and put happiness in its place. ;)

Isa akong tao na kulang sa atensyon. Wala ako kaclose sa aming bahay. In short I am a LONER. Di tulad ng iba na kapag unica hija ka, you got all the favors and closeness of your loved ones. Sad to say, I don’t belong to them. Ako ang tipo ng tao na kapag nasasaktan, magkukulong sa kwarto. Pag tinanong kung ano ang dahilan. Sasagot ng “ok lang ako”. “wla po ako problema”. Ewan ko ba! Ganito ako e. Mapagpanggap. Kahit nasasaktan na ako ng sobra sobra, pinipilit ko magpanggap na malakas at masaya. Madalas nasa kwarto lang ako, nag deday dream, lumilikha ng mga bagay na tulad ng binabasa mo ngaun.

Naghahanap ako ng atensyon at pinipilit ko abutin ang mga tao na sa palagay ko ay magpupuno ng puwang na tulad ng nasambit ko. At sila ang tinatawag kong KAIBIGAN.

Kaibigan na hindi titingnan ang kahinaan mo upang lalo ka manghina, sa halip tutulungan ka na maovercome ang mga yun.

Kaibigan na sasabihin sa ‘yo kung may uling ka sa mukha at hindi sila ung mga tao na hihilamusan ka pa ng uling para tuluyan ka maging tampulan ng tukso at panlalait.

Kaibigan na paiiyakin ka sa tawa.

Kaibigan na handa ka ipaglaban sa kung kaninuman na nang aapi sayo.

Kaibigan na magpapaka SUPERMAN o WONDERWOMAN, masagip ka lang sa panganib.

Hinde ba’t kay gandang isipin na may mga kaibigan tayo na kahit hindi naten nakakasama madalas ay pinag uugnay pa rin tayo ng pisi ng wagas na pagkakaibigan. Nakaukit sa kanya kanyang puso ang salitang “damayan”. At kahit hinde madalas naten makausap, isang lapit mo lang, anjan na sila upang makinig sa mga kwento mo na minsan ay paulit ulit na lang.

Pero hindi sa lahat ng pagkakataon, ung mga tinuturing naten kaibigan ay totoo. Un iba, balat kayo lang but for me, I don’t care about that reality. As long as I’ve been true to them, there’s no need for me to be guilt and felt so bad for so long. I’ve been good to them and when God checked on me and asked: How are you with your friends?”

I can say to Him. “I’ve been very honest, sincere and good to them my King, my Father.”

Magulo ang ideya ng obra kong ito.

Para sa mga makakabasa nito, salamat sa panahong iginugol mo upang alamin kung sino nga ba ang aking mga kaibigan. At kung isa ka sa kanila, SALAMAT at pinahintulutan mo ako na maging bahagi ng buhay mo. SALAMAT at ginamet ka ni Lord para kahit papano ay may makausap ako at mabawasan ang pagging emotera at loner ko.

Simple lang di ba? Pero ang totoo, this craft is to all the people whom I considered as my friends and also to the people who considered me as their friends.

I guess this is my way of saying thanks to you guys. For catching me when I fall and for laughing with me till we fart when I earned happy stories.

Thanks once again for being such a good friends and being there with me through it all. All of you, (can’t site the names anymore) are God’s blessings and you’ll always be with my prayers.

what i like most....

hahaha..i am a frustrated graphic artist. Yes I admit it. . NO doubt. I am just a trying hard one. And out of my frustration. Here it comes.

FIRST TRY!And frustrations turned to addictions. Explore. Explore. Experiment!

Kill the boredom! :)

I never stopped! And more and more pictures of mine were created by mine. I enjoyed so much.

LIFE GOES ON.....

This is how our life goes on…

We stumbled…

For as to stand up!

We were broken…

For as to be whole!

We were emptied…

For as to be filled!

We were lost…

For as to be found!

We were betrayed…

For as to trust!

We were disappointed...

For as to gain self esteem!

We were hurt…

For as to give more love!



No matter our life brought to us. There's one thing we ought to believe.

AND THAT IS...

Life must goes on!

Like a river flowing over the sea..

Like a flower that blooms on its season...

Like a catterpilar that will be a butterfly soon..

Like a sun that shines after a long night..

Like a rainbow that appears after a rain..

Life really must go on!

ycelah_1813

12:28pm

GOD'S PLAN..

I have read this from a website and just like to share! :))

God's Plan

Some things are beyond planning.

And life doesn't always turn out as planned.

You don't plan for a broken heart.

You don't plan for a failed business venture.

You don't plan for an adulterous husband

or a wife who wants you out of her life.

You don't plan for an autistic child.

You don't plan for spinsterhood.

You don't plan for a lump in your breast.

You plan to be young forever.

You plan to climb the corporate ladder.

You plan to be rich and powerful.

You plan to be acclaimed and successful.

You plan to conquer the universe.

You plan to fall in love - and be loved forever.

You don't plan to be sad.

You don't plan to be hurt.

You don't plan to be broke.

You don't plan to be betrayed.

You don't plan to be alone in this world.

You plan to be happy. You don't plan to be shattered.

Sometimes if you work hard enough, you can get what you want.

But MOST times, what you want and what you get are two different things.

We, mortals, plan. But so does God in the heavens.

Sometimes, it is difficult to understand God's plans especially when His plans are not in consonance with ours.

Often, when God sends us crisis, we turn to Him in anger. True, we cannot choose the cross that God wishes us to carry, but we can carry that cross with courage knowing that God will never abandon us nor send something we cannot cope with.

Sometimes, God breaks our spirit to save our soul.

Sometimes, He breaks our heart to make us whole.

Sometimes, God allows pain so we can be stronger.

Sometimes, God sends us failure so we can be humble.

Sometimes, God allows illness so we can take better care of ourselves. Sometimes, God takes everything away from us so we can learn the value of everything He gave us.

Make plans, but understand that we live by God's grace.

There is time and purpose for everything!

So, what's with December 08, 2010??

I've been asking myself why should I make a note or squiggle my mind to write again! Illusions! Deceptive! Tragic! blah blah..what else shall I add to make my reader more curious.

Suffocate!

Burned out!

Hands up!

Give up!

Or I just making the story exaggerated!

Bottom line is that I became a big “L” as in LOOSER!

I just found out myself like a brat who missed her favorite cartoon show, who broke her favorite doll, who didn’t get her extraordinary chocolates from a store. I end up doubting and questioning. Poor poor lady am I?

Cry. Burst in tears. Self-pity!

This one is too bad. Is these all I can do? I can’t do anything. And when all else subsides, I concluded that: Maybe it’s alright for me to cry so I can smile again. Maybe it’s alright for me to shout so I can be in silent again. Maybe it’s alright for me to rest so I can have a renewed strength.

Quit. Run away. Escape!

I just want to get lose. Oohhh! What’s going on? I give up. I’ll stop now. I don’t want a life like this. This is not I want. I am tired. I am weak. I don’t want anymore. I get to a point where all I can say, “I’m done trying. Enough is enough.”

Pause. Talk to Him. Pray!

What’s with me? Shame to myself. Where’s my faith after all? Where is the declaration of faith?

When I am about to sleep, a friend of mine share these bible verse that I think God really intended for me to read and dwell with the passages.

Ecclesiastes 3: 1-8.

To everything there is a season, and

a time to every purpose under heaven:

A time to be born, and

a time to die;

a time to plant, and

a time to pluck up

that which is planted;

A time to kill, and

a time to heal;

a time to break down, and

a time to build up;

A time to weep, and

a time to laugh;

a time to mourn, and

a time to dance;

A time to cast away stones, and

a time to gather stones together;

a time to embrace, and

a time to refrain from embracing;

A time to get, and

a time to lose;

a time to keep, and

a time to cast away;

A time to rend, and

a time to sow;

a time to keep silence, and

a time to speak;

A time to love, and

a time to hate;

a time of war; and

a time of peace.

Grateful. Moving on. Getting over it!

God is good all the time. There is really a time for everything. Every day may not be good... but there's something good in every day. The way I am is not the result of what has happened to me, it's the result of what I decide to keep inside me. And I have decided to keep inside me HIS promise:

Jeremiah 29:11

“For I know the plans I have for You, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”

PS:

Hahaha..hinde po ako expert writer!

This is my releasing window: a zone where I am able to express what’s with me. There‘s a part of my being who likes to write. It’s half of my passion.

Kaya pasensya na sa grammar at english vocabulary ko. :)

God bless everyone!

12/9/10

12:25 pm

So this is what we called L.O.V.E ???

Sometimes, there’s come a point that we’ll be wishing to be asleep for 100 years the same with Sleeping Beauty. And just be awakened when our prince charming arrived. So as there will be no painful experiences of loving the wrong man. No sweet moments and no hurtful memories.

But…

Finding true love wasn’t easy as what the fairy tale has. Sometimes love will bring you to a situation wherein even yourself, you can’t understand and figure out who you are. We tend to love the person more than ourselves and forgot that we too are special being.

Situations itself are showing us to give up for we are hurting ourselves deeper and deeper yet we still choose to believe on our feelings. It’s already time to move on but we are still standing on the same ground

HOPING….

CLINGING….

To that very thin line of a chance that “MAYBE” someday the love of our life will be with us again.

We shut our eyes.

So as not to see the reality…

We close our ears.

So as not to hear people’s piece of advice…

We fool our heart.

So as not to feel the pain that is so vague…

Worst of it, the more we expect the more things turned into predicament. We can’t blame those people who hurt us while we are too busy creating our own love story. We are accountable to every decision that we made. If we choose to love that person and choose that love to nurture, then we don’t need to blame them if that story didn’t turn as good as happy ending with the fairytales. We can’t beg someone to stay if they want to leave and be with someone else. We have to admit that love doesn't give us the license to own a person.

This is what love means...

SACRIFICE…

In life, there are many things that we have to learn to let go. We have to let go of situations, things, memories, people and even ourselves.

We can’t say we will be standing together forever especially when situations tell us to run away. When the pain now is greater than love, we have to give our self a break. When we get tired, we have to rest. We have to ignore the feelings running through the blood vessels of our heart so as we can build a new us.

Stronger than before.

Wiser than we used to be.

We have to see that heart breaks are blessings from God... for He saves us from someone who doesn't deserved to be loved...

And if still all else fail, we have to come back from the very beginning. To the Creator who loved us though we failed Him most of the time.

For GOD is LOVE and LOVE is GOD. (1 Jo. 4:8)

If our story didn't have a happy ending same with Sleeping Beauty we should not fear to love again.

There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. We loved because HE first loved us. (1 Jo. 4:18-19)

God is just teaching us. He will not allow us to be in a situation wherein we will gain nothing.

So cheer up ycelah! God loves you so much. :)

9/15/10

1:52 pm



when i met you

There I was, an empty piece of a shell,
Just minding my own world;
Without even knowin' what love and life were all about
Then you came,
You brought me out of the shell;
You gave the world to me
And before I knew, there I was so in love with you

You gave me a reason for my being
And I love what I'm feelin'
You gave me a meaning to my life
Yes, I've gone beyond existing
And it all began when I met you

I love the touch of your hair
And when I look in your eyes
I just know, I know I'm on to something good
And I'm sure, my love for you will endure
Your love will light up my world;
And take all my cares away
With the aching part of me

You gave me a reason for my being
And I love what I'm feelin'
You gave me a meaning to my life
Yes, I've gone beyond existing
And it all began when I met you

You taught me how to love
You showed me how tomorrow and today
My love is diff'rent from the yesterday
I knew, you taught me to love
And darling I will always cherish you today
Tomorrow and forever

And I'm sure when evening comes around
I know we'll be making love like never before
My love, who could ask for more

You gave me a reason for my being
And I love what I'm feelin'
You gave me a meaning to my life
Yes, I've gone beyond existing
And it all began when I met you

When I met you

You gave me a reason for my being
And I love what I'm feelin'
You gave me a meaning to my life
Yes, I've gone beyond existing
And it all began when I met you
When I met you

for future reference (girl talk)

C. Prevention and treatment
I. Diet

1. Whole grain
Whole grain contains high amounts of fiber that help to remove toxins from our body and indirectly strengthens liver function, which helps to maintain the levels of estrogened resulting in lowered xenoestrogen in our body.

2. Celery seed
Celery seed contains high amounts of butylidene-phthalide which helps to balance woman's natural hormones and reduce emotional stress causing irregular hormone production by cleansing toxins from the liver as well as improving reproduction of red blood cells caused by liver malfunction.

3. Soy
Soy contains high amounts of isoflavones which helps to balance your body's estrogen levels as well as binding the xenoestrogen causing breast cancer and tumors. Soy raises the levels of estrogen if it is too low and lowers levels of estrogen if it is too high.

4. Yogurt
Yogurt contains lactobacillus bacteria that helps to lower incidence of breast cancer as well as preventing the re-absorption of xenoestrogen and enhancing immune effects.

5. Legumes
Legumes and other protein rich food contains high amounts of coumestans that helps to improve metabolism of estrogen in the liver. It also helps to maintain levels of omega 3 and omega 6 fatty acids as well as cleansing the bad cholesterol in our body, improving blood flow.

6. Sesame seed
Besides containing proteins that are necessary for improving metabolism of estrogen levels in the liver, sesame seed contains lignans that helps to increase levels of phyto-estrogen and reducing the production of estrogen converting into xenoestrogen wich causes breast cancer and amenorrhea.

7. Potato
Potato contains high amounts of steroidial saponins that helps to block the over-production of estrogen by increasing levels of phyto-estrogen, the element which is necessary for normalizing menstrual cycle


II. Nutritional Supplements
1. Linoleic acid
Linoleic acid is a fatty acid. Besides playing an important role in women fertility and reducing menstrual blood flow, it also helps to stimulate the production of estrogen whichn helps to bring on menstrual cycle. Deficiency of lioleic acid may cause infertility and endometriosis. You can find foods with high linoleic acid in sunflower oil, olive oil, and corn oil. They should be eaten uncooked.

2.Gamma linoleic acid
Besides helping to block the production of prostalandins caused by conversion of high level of estrogen, it also improves the liver metabolism by cleansing the excessive levels of bad estrogen resulting in a balanced level of estrogen and progesterone which are needed to bring on menstrual cycle.

3. Flax seed extract
Besides having power to balance levels of omega 3 and omega 6 fatty acids that cause hormone imbalance, flax seeds also contain high amounts of phytoestrogenic that helps to balance the level of estrogen and progesterone those are essential to bring on menstruation as well as amenorrhea.

4. Progesterone supplement
Progesterone is a hormone from a corpus luteum, formed by the cyclical rupture of an ovarian follicle. Low levels of progesterone or low levels of estrogen may cause hormone imbalance which effects the menstrual cycle as well as causing absence of menstruation.

5. Zinc
Zinc is important in reproduction health such as growth, and fertility. Zinc deficiency causes anorexia resulting in amenorrhea.

6. Iron
Iron is essential for liver production of red blood cells that helps to improve blood circulation as well as increasing oxygen levels in the bloodstream. Deficiency of iron reduces function of liver to inhibit excessive bad estrogen in our body. Women with absence of menstruation have low levels of iron.

7. L-cartitine
L-cartine is an amino acid having effects on brain chemicals and hormones that control female reproductive hormones. Study shows that women having low levels of hormone in the blood with intake of of L-cartinine helps to bring back menstruation within three to six months with 50% success rate.

8. Vitamin B6
In some women, absence of menstruation is caused by high levels of prolactin production by the pituitary gland. Consuming vitamin B6 will help to inhibit the production of prolactin as well as restoring menstruation.

III. Herbs
1.Schisandra chinesis
Schisandra chinesis is a liver tonic. It helps to bind the conversion of estrogen to xenoestrogen, the bad estrogen that causes breast cancer, tumor and hormonal irregularity as well as absence of menstruation.

2. Angelica root
Angelica root is a woman's reproductive system enhancing herb. It has been used in Chinese medicine in treating women reproductive system diseases caused by hormone irregularity. Besides helping in production of blood after menstruation, it also helps to stimulate production of certain hormones, normalizing a woman's menstrual cycle.

3. Licorice
Licorice contains flavonoids and isoflavonoids that help to regulate the balancing of estrogen and progesterone as well as improving hormonal secretion causing absence of period.

4. Astragalus
Astragalus contains high amounts of isoflavones and polysaccharides that help to regulate the levels of estrogen and progeaterone resulting in a normal menstrual cycle.

5. Ginger
Ginger is an emmenagogues besides increasing blood flow and bringing on a late period. It also has the properties to help women reset ovulation and menstruation suppressed or delayed menstruation, and promote menstrual periods.

6. Chastetree berry
Chastetree berry is said to help bring back menstruation by balancing hormones in the body caused by low levels of progesterone and reducing levels of prolactin causing absence of menstruation.

7. Red clover
Red clover is a phytoestrogen that helps to balance the levels of estrogen and progesterone, the essential hormone for starting a menstrual cycle as well as bring on menstruation.

8. Black cohosh
Black cohosh is a powerful women enhancing herb. It is an auterine tonic belonging to the emmenagogues that helps to provoke menstrual bleeding. When menstruation is delayed, black cohosh is said to get the flow going again.

9. Motherwort
Motherwort is a perennial plant native to Europe and the temperate parts of central Asia. It is a uterine tonic that helps to regulate menstruation, reduce smooth muscle cramping such as menstrual cramps, and stimulate the uterus to bring on delayed menstruation.

THE COMPILATIONS

TAG HIS LINES
(may pagka jologs at korny sa iba pero para sa akin hinde ito mahalaga, ang dapat maging batayan e ang “sincerity, purity and honesty” from every words that he uttered to me)
- - nakz! Inlababu na nama ang lola ih! Tsk tsk..;)

Hehe! Ilan to sa mga salita na madalas ko marinig seu!

1.MAHAL KITA. SOBRA. – mapatext o personal lage mo ko sinasabihan nito.
-I love you! :-)

2.IKAW ANG SIOMAI AT CHICHARON KO. – ewan ko sa kanya, lage niya gusto palitan ang name ko..kung hinde si siomai e si chicharon.
-Thank you! :-)

3.MAGTULUNGAN TAYO.- salamat at di ka nakakalimot na iremind ako na andito ka para suportahan ako at ganun din ako sayo.
-Happy becoz of ü! :-)

4.NGITI, DALI!. – ngiti para mas lalo gumanda. Naman! Kagaling mambola, ako namang panis,ngigiti nga.
-I love you! :-)

5.PAGANDA KA HA.- (ang tanong ko sa sarili ko e gumaganda nga ba?-hehe) di siya nakakalimot sabihan ako na magbihis ng maaus sa tuwing may event kame na pupunthan. Ang dame alam s fashion e. Relo, hikaw at mga kwintas ko sa kanya lahat galeng.
-Thank you! :-)

6.AKIN KA NGA!KAAWAY KO NMAN ANG MUNDO- wapak! pamatay ang linya na to. Siguro ay dala ng kalungkutan at pressure sa bahay.
-Happy becoz of ü! :-)

7. IKAW ANG KAHINAAN KO- May pagka nega pag unang rinig o basa pero may mas malalim siya na paliwanag dito (kung anu un, amin na lang eun!) isa pa rin pamatay to –jump to no. 8.
-I love you! :-)

8. IKAW NA ANG ASAWA KO-sabhan ba naman aq na mali dw ung sbhin ko na “dapat ikaw na ang maging asawa ko” ang tama dw e “ikaw na ang asawa ko”. Sounds radical yet by prayers and God’s will pwede mangyare!
-Thank you! :-)

9. SALAMAT HA! ( in English, thanks ha)- kunware di ko alam why siya nagpapasalamat. Itatanong ko agad kung bakit. Sabay sagot kc akin ka, sa lhat lahta slamat.
-Happy becoz of ü! :-)

· * - - -e2 muna sa ngaun, magiipon pa ko..
hanggang sa muli!..>>

christening of Jurg Lagura

quick feedback lang to!
My mom and I went to EMG's hometown. It is in Isabela to join a christening of his nephew named Jurg. This is my outfit during the ceremonial. Picture is taken by him before we went to church.