There is time and purpose for everything!

So, what's with December 08, 2010??

I've been asking myself why should I make a note or squiggle my mind to write again! Illusions! Deceptive! Tragic! blah blah..what else shall I add to make my reader more curious.

Suffocate!

Burned out!

Hands up!

Give up!

Or I just making the story exaggerated!

Bottom line is that I became a big “L” as in LOOSER!

I just found out myself like a brat who missed her favorite cartoon show, who broke her favorite doll, who didn’t get her extraordinary chocolates from a store. I end up doubting and questioning. Poor poor lady am I?

Cry. Burst in tears. Self-pity!

This one is too bad. Is these all I can do? I can’t do anything. And when all else subsides, I concluded that: Maybe it’s alright for me to cry so I can smile again. Maybe it’s alright for me to shout so I can be in silent again. Maybe it’s alright for me to rest so I can have a renewed strength.

Quit. Run away. Escape!

I just want to get lose. Oohhh! What’s going on? I give up. I’ll stop now. I don’t want a life like this. This is not I want. I am tired. I am weak. I don’t want anymore. I get to a point where all I can say, “I’m done trying. Enough is enough.”

Pause. Talk to Him. Pray!

What’s with me? Shame to myself. Where’s my faith after all? Where is the declaration of faith?

When I am about to sleep, a friend of mine share these bible verse that I think God really intended for me to read and dwell with the passages.

Ecclesiastes 3: 1-8.

To everything there is a season, and

a time to every purpose under heaven:

A time to be born, and

a time to die;

a time to plant, and

a time to pluck up

that which is planted;

A time to kill, and

a time to heal;

a time to break down, and

a time to build up;

A time to weep, and

a time to laugh;

a time to mourn, and

a time to dance;

A time to cast away stones, and

a time to gather stones together;

a time to embrace, and

a time to refrain from embracing;

A time to get, and

a time to lose;

a time to keep, and

a time to cast away;

A time to rend, and

a time to sow;

a time to keep silence, and

a time to speak;

A time to love, and

a time to hate;

a time of war; and

a time of peace.

Grateful. Moving on. Getting over it!

God is good all the time. There is really a time for everything. Every day may not be good... but there's something good in every day. The way I am is not the result of what has happened to me, it's the result of what I decide to keep inside me. And I have decided to keep inside me HIS promise:

Jeremiah 29:11

“For I know the plans I have for You, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”

PS:

Hahaha..hinde po ako expert writer!

This is my releasing window: a zone where I am able to express what’s with me. There‘s a part of my being who likes to write. It’s half of my passion.

Kaya pasensya na sa grammar at english vocabulary ko. :)

God bless everyone!

12/9/10

12:25 pm