Paradox

Amongst those withering socket wrenches, I knew I had bruises and it's aching. My heart is trampled and I'm afraid time might slips to heal the scars. I can no longer hear the chuckles neither find the inner of me to smirk. I saw the real thing! I unveiled the fakes and foes, the false and wrong, and the liars and the suckers. The jungle I am moving on is a corrupted one. With those adversities, I found myself sitting on a pew of a solemn place. I felt the warmth while I slumped on a shoulder.

The sound of serenity is deafening. Until a voice grumbled and echoed on my ears; "Light it up. Drop everything. Let go. You need rest. Because some of the best days of your life is just about to happen. Behold, you will see the miracles. You just had fight the good fight of faith."

And slowly I felt my head is slowly leaning away from a shoulder. I cannot move. The picture now is a warrior lulling on that solemn place. There is indispensable joy! That picture is the most beautiful of all.

ycelah_83
07/11/14, 12:08 am

First time ko makasulat ng maikli! Congratulations to my brain cells! HAHA. :)

Upgrading to my old version! ;)

There is time for everything; a time to sow and a time to reap.

And today is added day of those days wherein I take stand on my decision. I have random confession that only few people will understand and they are those probably the closest to me. I decided to put  everything on writing so as when time went by, I can turn the blogger on and check if I was able to stick on my decision. For being a fickle minded person, when I looked back and was able to did everything on my mind now could be one of the proudest achievement I can have. For every one who will take time to know what are those, join with me and notice if I can bring back the old me! And my point is I am missing my old self. Let me take down my bucket list:  

(1) I want to go back during the time wherein I don't have access on wi-fi.

(2) I want to go back during the time wherein my cellphone was only Nokia 3315 and I don't have enough penny on my pocket to load my cellphone. No unlimited text nor call or even unlimited data plan at all.

(3) I want to spend time reading books rather than reading the news feed from my facebook or instagram account.

(4) I want to stay on the house rather than go out and spend money just to see places I've never been.

(5) I want to be back on the days wherein 1 pair of shoes will be okay with me, 1 rugged bag will be enough, 1 cheap watch is okay and I wouldn't mind if I don't have new dresses or pants. Contentment of everything I have will be definitely fine with me. 

(6) I want to spend more time with my family rather than go out with friends just to satisfy myself as a wanderlust. 

(7) I want to go back on time wherein my self esteem is so low that even to grin on the picture I could not do. No more selfie! Moderation will be better.

(8) I want my family be proud of me once more. People pleaser? No! Not at all. I just want them to be happier more than the how happy I could be.

(9) I want to be a woman of faith.

(10) I want less of me and more of Jesus!!!

Do I sound weird? Yes!! I am really missing the old me. And I need to embrace myself for the toughest war I would have. It's a battle between me, myself and I. Everything lies with me. I have to make stand and be firm on it! I need to change. I need to discipline myself. I need to renew my mind. I have all the power to change my perspective in my life. This is for meantime. I just need to re route and take a new way, a new lifestyle. 

Sometimes we need to starve ourselves so we would know the feeling of having nothing. Sometimes we need to breath new air so we would know if we will miss the old rush of wind. Sometimes we need to begin again to make a new version of who we are now. Sometimes we need to sow sacrifice today so as to reap success tomorrow.

04/09/14

7:37 pm

ycelah83

#newcode #newme #upgradedversion

Whatever will be will be..

“You can’t control everything. Sometimes you just need to relax and have faith that things will work out. Let go a little and just let life happen.”~ LLIL

Let go a little? How little you have to let go? What if all of a sudden, your toil and plan turned into absolutely nothing? How far you have to go? What if all of a sudden, the road to your finish line is under construction?

This only allude to the reality that we can’t control everything! Just like as the sun rise on the east and set on the west, life is so unpredictable. Today, you are sad, the next minute you are totally merry. We are on a jigsaw puzzle. We are on a crossroads. We are on unending roller coaster. Life to success is always a long winding journey. Life planted to us supersedes what fiction or novel has. It’s beyond our imagination. Isn’t amazing? Isn’t surprising?

It’s frustrating to know that you need to stop! Stop now and then. It’s because, there are great changes. And as a human, it’s normal to react; to get silly, to get sad or be discouraged. And the hardest part is there will be time that you will wrestle against your will and what God wants. Everything will go back to the quantity of your faith. How big is your faith: a mustard seed, an avocado seed or a seedless one? The Bible says on Matthew 17:20 that if you have so little faith, as small as a mustard seed, you can tell to the mountain to move from there and it will move.

It’s exasperating to know that you need to re rout because there are detours. And the hardest part is you don’t know which way to go. Believe me there is still a great way! You are just been misled by your feelings. Your fears and doubts are telling you there is no way anymore, but there is! God will make a way. The Bible says on Isaiah 43:19 to look unto Him for He is about to do something new. He will make a way in the wilderness and even rivers in the dessert.

It’s wearisome to know that you have to let go and start a new one. And the hardest part is you don’t have the courage to start all over again. Listen to a sweet still small voice and frequently remind yourself that God is with you. Remind yourself and always believe that God will never fail you. The Bible says on Proverbs 19:21 that it is you who plan your ways, but the Lord is the One who direct your steps.

When God puts something in your heart, believe on it. If you can dream about it, you can do it! Whatever you have in your heart now: car, house and lot, baby, grand wedding dream, permanent job, promotion, career growth, college degree, healing and even up to the very simple happy thoughts, He will enable you to have those. And if there are times, you are not getting any, be still and hold on. God knows what He is doing. The Bible says on Jeremiah 29:11 that He knows the plans for you, plans to prosper and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Say these words: “God is with me, He will not abandon me.” Give God the little you have and you can trust Him to make it go around. Let go a little and you’ll see a life to happen for whatever will be will be que sera sera. 

ycelah_1813

02/20/19

4:53 pm

Let the LOVE begin..

“Hatred ever kills, love never dies. Such is the vast difference between the two. What is obtained by love is retained for all time. What is obtained by hatred proves a burden in reality for it increases hatred." 

Quote unquote from Mohandas K. Gandhi. Every one has freedom of choice. Nobody is perfect and every body gets into the feeling of being hated by any one or vice versa. At this moment, I may not know if you hate someone for a particular reason or you’ve been hated for the same reason. Whether it's because of jealousy, insecurity or a suck personality, all I know it’s a disease! Better treat it as early as now. Prevention is better than cure.

And now if you are on a crossroads, which way will you choose?

L-O-V-E or H-A-T-E

And now if I am on a crossroads, which way will I choose?

L-O-V-E or H-A-T-E

And life will be like this is you let hate grow in your heart.

Every waking day is a burden.

Every sleeping night is a mare.

Hatred kills.

Love dies.

Hatred is a like a poison that rot.

Love disappears.

Hatred impedes your growth.

Love slips.

When someone threw you a stone, how do you respond? Throw him/her with a bigger bite?

When someone slapped your left face, how will you act? Hold his/her hand and slap it on your right face?

A world will always be a world. Cruelty, inequality, injustice and other negativities are present. And that is the reality. There are two kind of people; immature and mature, bad and good, positive and negative, dark and light, lover and hater. Choose to stand out! Stand to be good though you’re the only one standing. Choose to act in a mature way though sometimes you miss how to do it. Choose to be good though this world is inviting you to be bad. Live a positive way though most of the time, negative is on top of scenes. Be a light! Be a lover!

Yeah I know, those are all hard to do. But once you did, it is all rewarding and fulfilling. I know your point. We are human beings only. There are always limitations. Kindness is not always a remedy but it’s always the antidote.  Read it again and think about it! There’s no other way but to deal life with goodness. There’s no other way but to plant the seed of love every where even to those whom you hate or to those who hate you. It’s really hard to shake the hands of people whom you dislike but it’s not faking your feelings. It’s being mature. You are mature enough to show them that you are a carrier of love. Your hormones are intended to love only.

And whenever your feelings begin to hate a particular person or worst is you hate your own, all you have to do is put your fist on your chest! Feel the pulse. Look above. You are created by God out of His love and you are living abundantly out of His unmerited favor. You are called for a purpose, to exemplify the love to those unlovable. Never get tired of doing well! In His time, you will reap the harvest plentiful. Remember, everything is temporary. The earth is only a place we can stay for awhile. Be a God pleaser for our real home is in eternal.

And now if you are on a crossroads, which way will you choose?

L-O-V-E or H-A-T-E

And now if I am on a crossroads, which way will I choose?

L-O-V-E or H-A-T-E

As Martin Luther King Jr. says, "I have decided to stick with love. Hate is too great a burden to bear."

You as well must choose love over hate! Let the love begin and let it all begin in you.

Xoxo,

Ycelah_1813

01-30-14

I LOVE WRITING AND READING

Copied and Pasted Writings from different bloggers.
I will read this when I got enough time! Hoho. :D



http://elitedaily.com/life/motivation/20-things-that-mentally-strong-people-dont-do/

http://www.lifehack.org/articles/communication/50-reasons-why-you-may-unhappy.html

http://www.viralnova.com/married-and-dating/

T-E-A-R-S [01-02-14]

I saw myself writing again, writing with tears on my eyes. I promise, I’ll try to make this one short and it’s all dedicated to you.

I've been fascinated by your goodness. I've been amazed of your kindness. I've been captivated on your dedication to bring the best for your loved ones. Now, the door on this earth sends you to your real home, I am one of those who felt your lost. The feeling I had now brings the hymn of melancholy, cuddles me with a sad lullaby and stirs up the ink in my pulse. I am writing again because I miss you too and I love you too.

I used to tease your son as “papa’s boy.”
He used to tell me, “Mi, ung remaining 10 minutes, di ko na ipantatawag sa’yo. Tatawagan ko pa kasi si Papa.” “Mi, pakitext naman si Papa, wala kase ako load.”

And I will definitely miss every text conversations we had. Even the phone calls I used to receive from you asking how your son is. Why he is not replying to your text messages.

And I will definitely miss a man who makes me feel, I belong to his family. For every visit I made to your town, you always welcome me as if I am really your daughter. I was even flattered when I heard that you are one of those who felt sad and dismayed when I and your son broke up.

I guessed, I am terribly inlove with your son, what he feels, I can feel. What he lost, I lost too.

Let me cry far apart. And let those tears flow freely from our eyes. When the dawn is done, we'll see the sun up. I can feel the pain that you're feeling now. I can hear the breeze of loneliness. I can see the lonely nights and the weeping days. If only I have the power to bring the life that was lost, I will so as not to see you all grieving. My heart is aching too. I will be missing you too.

And I will definitely miss a man behind who your son is now.
Let me grieve also. Let me say few thankful words. Thank you for bringing up Eric so well. Thank you for planting the seed of goodness, humility, and all the good traits he has now. Thank you for being a good father to him. I can see he is a good son and will be as good father as you are when the time comes.

You left your son and the rest of your loved ones early. You surprised all of us. This isn’t going to be easy. There will be crying nights, all the plans have to be retracted and start again from the scratch. But we gaze on the positive side of what happened. One thing we are sure, God loves you so much that He called you back home so as not to suffer the nastiness of life here on earth. Well done, My faithful servant! Up above on heaven, stare on us. You’re gone but will never be forgotten.

God has ways also of comforting. While writing this, suddenly my playlist sang Kari’s song “Find You on my knee”

And to end this, let me copy and paste some of its lyrics that touched my heart and reminded me to never cease praying, never doubt God's plan and hold always to Him for He knows what He is doing.

“When my hope is gone, when the fear is strong, when the pain is real, when it’s hard to heal, when my faith is shaken and my heart is broken and my joy is stolen, God I know that You lift me up, you’ll never leave me searching.”

ycelah_1813
01.08.14
9:21 pm

doom be doom be doom!

"Even to your old age and gray hairs
    I am He, I am He who will sustain you.
I have made you and I will carry you;
    I will sustain you and I will rescue you." ---Isaiah 46:4

Tomorrow will be start of an added chapter of my life. Looking back on the past years, I will always be thankful for God’s faithfulness and goodness into my entire stay on earth. Not to mention how immensely grateful I am for my amazing friends, loving kin, understanding work forces and all kind of support system I have. Yeah, I have really have SO much to give thanks for in everyday of my life! 

I am not perfect, I sinned but thank God His grace is boundless.

I am not complete, I have shortcomings but thank God His love is limitless.

I am not rich, but thank God His riches and glorious abound in me.

I may not have all my wants in life but thank God His blessings are immeasurable.

I am wanderer and dreamer.

I have lot of dreams I used to think over the night and then the next morning, it’s still a dream. HAHA! :D

I am a lover.

I love all of you! :*

I am antagonistic rebellion.

I fight for what I think is right.

I speak for what I think is good.

And for those people who get offended on me, who misinterpreted my behavior and misjudged my action, please understand me!  I am just being myself. Holalala.. :p

I am a survivor.

I survived the waves of the sea tossed on me.
I am a seeker.

I exist because I need to seek Him.

I am a server.

I’ve been called to serve the King of kings.

I am predestined to enjoy what tomorrow brings.

I get hurt, betrayed, cried a lot yesterday.

I am a scrapped piece from the nail pierced on His hand.

I am alive because of the life He offered from the cal vary.

Who Am I?

I am who I am because of You.

Life for me will still be a long way journey as I see now.

I pray to God to shower me strength to press through every struggle, endure every trial, and overcome every hurdle through the power of Holy Spirit working in me and through me.

My Creator, when I am down, let me hold on to Your promises from the moment You created my inmost being on my mother’s womb until my hair turned into gray or until the least second of my breath.

"Even to your old age and gray hairs
    I am He, I am He who will sustain you.
I have made you and I will carry you;
    I will sustain you and I will rescue you." ---Isaiah 46:4

~ycelah is signing off!

12/17/13

10:21 pm

10 WAYS A GOOD WOMAN WILL MAKE YOU A BETTER MAN

September 2, 2013 · by James Michael Sama · in Dating & Relationships. ·

As men, we’ve all been there. The relationshits where the girl you’re dating brings more drama than happiness to your life. Where her immaturity and jealousy stresses you out. Where you question if being a relationship is even something you want.

I do believe, though, that a good woman will bring many positives to your life.

A good woman will support you in all of your ventures. She will be your cheerleader and encourage you to chase after your goals and dreams.

A good woman will make you excited to come home at night. She will be your encouragement after bad days and the first one to congratulate you after good days.

Either way, she will be your reward after all days.

A good woman will make you want to be the best version of yourself, just by being present in your life. You will always want to be more and do more, both for her and for yourself.

A good woman will make you excited for each day to begin. Knowing you have the love of the one you love will give you a new outlook on life.

A good woman will never judge you. She will accept you as you are, giving you more confidence in yourself.

A good woman will teach you about life. The female perspective on the world is completely different than a man’s, and seeing things in different lights often give you a clearer view.

A good woman will be honest with you, whether you like it or not. While being supportive and encouraging, she’ll also tell you if there’s something you need to change and improve, and who doesn’t want to improve?

A good woman will open your mind to new things. Odds are you’ve got different interests – so embarking on hers with her will bring new experiences into your life that you may not have tried without her.

A good woman will help you see yourself how she sees you, in your best light. She will help you recognize the great things about yourself that she sees, and you may not.

A good woman will keep you grounded. Let’s be honest – there has been more than one occasion when you’ve gone to a female friend for advice on any given topic. To have a good woman be the voice of reason in your daily life, will keep you on the right track.

When you have the love of a good woman supporting you, there will be nothing you can’t accomplish.

10 WAYS TO MAKE YOUR GIRL FEEL SPECIAL

September 9, 2013 · by James Michael Sama · in Dating & Relationships. ·

1. Make her feel beautiful, every day.

This one seems obvious. Internet Romeos everywhere are reading this going “Hey man, I call girls beautiful every day!” I don’t mean just telling a woman she’s beautiful – any guy can do that. I mean make her deeply feel, in her heart, that you think she is the most heart-wrenchingly beautiful woman you’ve ever laid your eyes on.

Women are not often as confident as they come across. You need to reinforce her, no matter what. It doesn’t matter if she just got stung by a bee and her entire face is swollen like a basketball, she is still beautiful, and you damn well better act like it.

It’s not just in what you say – it’s in what you don’t say. It’s in how you look at her, how you talk to her, and how you touch her. Make her feel what you don’t need to say, instead of just hearing what you do say.

2. Be honest.

This is another big one. It may not seem like it, because honesty should be a quality that you express towards everyone in your daily life – but being honest with a woman you care about will show her that you respect her enough to be straight up with her.

Choose your words carefully, don’t express your honesty in a way that would hurt her feelings, but make sure she knows that she’ll get a straight answer when she comes to you for one, no matter what it’s about.

3. Kiss her. And not just on the lips.

Now’s the time to get your mind out of the gutter – When was the last time you gave your girl a kiss on the forehead? On the nose? On her hand?

Sometimes these actions speak even louder volumes than a kiss on the lips. They show her you want to be close to her, and you care about her. Plus, they’re more appropriate in public, so you can show her affection and not be arrested by the PDA police.

4. Don’t compare her to other women.

There’s really no reason to do this in the first place – but a woman shouldn’t be made to feel that she’s the ‘best’ out of ‘all the other girls’ because it implies that there are, or have been, other girls. We’re all adults, we realize everyone has a past, but there’s no point in bringing it up.

Instead of making your girl feel like the ‘best’ girl – make her feel like the only girl, because she is.

5. Don’t miss the little things.

Chivalry is a common theme in my blog posts – but that’s because it’s a big one. Often times the small things you do for a woman are the ones that count the most, because it shows you’re willing to put in effort for her just because you want to, and not due to a special occasion or event.

Don’t let the little things fade. The opening of doors and pulling out of chairs, holding her hand no matter how long you’ve been together, hugging her from behind for no reason – all speak louder than words you can say.

6. Listen.

In a healthy relationship, each partner relies on the other for love, guidance, and advice. Sometimes, just taking the time to genuinely listen to what she has to say, and not saying anything at all – will say more to her than your words ever could.

If a woman is complaining to you, remember that it means she trusts you enough to express her feelings to you. Don’t betray that trust.

7. Start, and end your day with her.

Even if you can’t see each other every day, by sending her a simple text when you wake up, and before you go to bed, she will know she’s the first and last person you think of every day. That is priceless.

8. Give her massages.

I never thought I’d have to put this one in here, I give my girlfriend some type of massage literally every time I’ve seen her in the past 10 months of being together. Yet, when girls talk about getting a massage from their boyfriend it’s like it’s some special occasion saved for birthdays and holidays.

It’s not that hard, guys. She’ll appreciate it, and return the favor…

9. Respect her wishes.

You may not always agree with everything your girlfriend says or does. But, mutual respect is the backbone of any healthy relationship. Speaking of backbone – respecting her wishes doesn’t mean sacrificing yours, but it does mean being willing to bend it a little bit for her. You don’t always need to get your way. Plus, you might learn something from her.

10. Remember the little details.

Whether it’s the date you met, the song that always makes her cry, that craving for french fries she gets once every 6 months, or that perfume she loves – paying attention to small details and doing something about it to surprise her, will show your woman that when she talks, you hear her.

It shows her that no matter how busy your life is, despite the pressure you get at work, or the millions of other things you need to worry about – she holds a special place in your heart, and your mind. A place uncluttered by the other noise in your day, or the hectic life you probably both live.

A place reserved just for her – and that, gentlemen, is special.

7 WAYS TO MAKE YOUR MAN FEEL APPRECIATED

November 5, 2013 · by James Michael Sama · in Dating & Relationships. ·

If he is a true gentleman, he will do all of these things, and more, without expectation of anything in return. Your happiness is his reward. That being said, though – a basic human need for all people is to feel wanted and appreciated, especially in relationships, and especially when they perform selfless acts for others.

If you do have a good man, it’s important to let him know that what he does for you, matters. Even if it’s just in small ways. Here are some suggestions, in no particular order.

1. Pick up the tab.

Anyone who reads my articles knows that I believe a man should always pay for dates. Not just the first date, but all dates. It’s just the way I was raised and it’s what I practice in my daily life. However, if your guy is always treating you to nice dinners, or if you’re on vacation, and you slip your card to the waiter without him noticing, he won’t hate it.

It will show him that you appreciate the things he does for you and that you’re willing to take care of him every once in awhile, too.

2. Dinner at home, after a long day.

A few months ago, I was interviewed on a podcast in the UK about chivalry in modern relationships. One of the things I was asked was, “How can women be chivalrous too?” An example I gave was that it’s easy and inexpensive to have dinner and some wine waiting for your man when he gets home after a long day.

It will completely free him of any stress from the day – and you don’t even have to be a good cook. Just pick up the phone for take out.

3. Do your nails.

This one might seem a little weird, but hear me out. Often times in relationships, you get comfortable. A lot of time is spent on the couch in sweats, and sometimes those are the best nights. But, it’s important to not let yourself go. Make sure he knows you still want to look good for him by paying attention to the little details. (He should do the same, of course).

4. In the bedroom.

I have always believed (and practiced) that a woman’s needs come first in the bedroom (no pun intended) absolutely every time, no exception. Just make sure that your man doesn’t get forgotten or deprived in the process. It’s a team sport.

5. Show him he’s a priority.

We all have busy lives. Friends, family, work…things can get crazy. It’s unrealistic to put a significant other before all of these things all the time – but make sure you include him where you can, and don’t let him feel boxed out, shuffled to the bottom of the deck, or unwanted if you get too busy.

6. Be affectionate.

As simple as this one is, it is often overlooked. Small things like hand-holding, walking arm in arm with him, or resting your head on his shoulder (or chest if you’re laying down) make him feel like he’s one with you, and protecting you from harm – something all good men should want to do.

7. Tell him.

If you appreciate what he does for you, tell him.

Relationships, and romance, are a two way street. A good man will give all he can to you and never ask for anything in return. However, that doesn’t mean that a woman shouldn’t take small steps to show him that what he does makes an impact on her life, and she cherishes having him in it.

A little bit goes a long way.