And today is added day of those days wherein I take stand on my decision. I have random confession that only few people will understand and they are those probably the closest to me. I decided to put everything on writing so as when time went by, I can turn the blogger on and check if I was able to stick on my decision. For being a fickle minded person, when I looked back and was able to did everything on my mind now could be one of the proudest achievement I can have. For every one who will take time to know what are those, join with me and notice if I can bring back the old me! And my point is I am missing my old self. Let me take down my bucket list:
(1) I want to go back during the time wherein I don't have access on wi-fi.
(2) I want to go back during the time wherein my cellphone was only Nokia 3315 and I don't have enough penny on my pocket to load my cellphone. No unlimited text nor call or even unlimited data plan at all.
(3) I want to spend time reading books rather than reading the news feed from my facebook or instagram account.
(4) I want to stay on the house rather than go out and spend money just to see places I've never been.
(5) I want to be back on the days wherein 1 pair of shoes will be okay with me, 1 rugged bag will be enough, 1 cheap watch is okay and I wouldn't mind if I don't have new dresses or pants. Contentment of everything I have will be definitely fine with me.
(6) I want to spend more time with my family rather than go out with friends just to satisfy myself as a wanderlust.
(7) I want to go back on time wherein my self esteem is so low that even to grin on the picture I could not do. No more selfie! Moderation will be better.
(8) I want my family be proud of me once more. People pleaser? No! Not at all. I just want them to be happier more than the how happy I could be.
(9) I want to be a woman of faith.
(10) I want less of me and more of Jesus!!!
Do I sound weird? Yes!! I am really missing the old me. And I need to embrace myself for the toughest war I would have. It's a battle between me, myself and I. Everything lies with me. I have to make stand and be firm on it! I need to change. I need to discipline myself. I need to renew my mind. I have all the power to change my perspective in my life. This is for meantime. I just need to re route and take a new way, a new lifestyle.
Sometimes we need to starve ourselves so we would know the feeling of having nothing. Sometimes we need to breath new air so we would know if we will miss the old rush of wind. Sometimes we need to begin again to make a new version of who we are now. Sometimes we need to sow sacrifice today so as to reap success tomorrow.
04/09/14
7:37 pm
ycelah83
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